Life is a cycle

In my late teens and 20s, I wanted to be a free bird. I did not like if my parents would question me about anything. If I wanted to go out with my friends, there were times when I did not feel like giving them all the information. Though they were never very strict and gave me permission for almost everything except for late night outings. Still I felt crunched up at times, I wanted my space.

Now my son is grown up and he has some similar behavior and I do not like it. When I am reflecting on the same situation of the past with me being in his shoes, I can totally relate it. And I feel so bad now for my parents. I must have been so mean to them and hurt their feelings in those moments.

When children grow up, life of parents suddenly starts feeling empty. When children are born, for many years parents dedicate their lives for them, with children being the center stage of their lives. Everything takes a back seat, it's all about children all the time. Your wake up, sleep, outings, holidays, what you eat, all need to be planned around them. And one fine day suddenly you are disconnected from all of it and you need to find your own purpose in life. Especially for mothers, whose life revolves around her child.

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Life is a circle
nainaztengra (80)in #life • 12 minutes ago
In my late teens and 20s, I wanted to be a free bird. I did not like if my parents would question me about anything. If I wanted to go out with my friends, there were times when I did not feel like giving them all the information. Though they were never very strict and gave me permission for almost everything except for late night outings. Still I felt crunched up at times, I wanted my space.

Now my son is grown up and he has some similar behavior and I do not like it. When I am reflecting on the same situation of the past with me being in his shoes, I can totally relate it. And I feel so bad now for my parents. I must have been so mean to them and hurt their feelings in those moments.

When children grow up, life of parents suddenly starts feeling empty. When children are born, for many years parents dedicate their lives for them, with children being the center stage of their lives. Everything takes a back seat, it's all about children all the time. Your wake up, sleep, outings, holidays, what you eat, all need to be planned around them. And one fine day suddenly you are disconnected from all of it and you need to find your own purpose in life. Especially for mothers, whose life revolves around her child.

Sometimes I tell my son, that he needs to be sensitive about his approach towards me, and he tells me jokingly, Mom you have become old. And I tell him, I was in the same shoes at his age, but now I feel it, and life is a circle, some day with his children, he may also feel the same. I am much stable in my mind as such, when it comes to these things, but still there are times when I miss my motherhood role when he was a young boy.

Yesterday one of my friends was talking to me about this. Her daughter has finished her secondary school education and in 2 month's time will be leaving for University degree studies to another country. She was telling me, that suddenly she feels so empty in life and once she is actually gone, she does not know what to do with her time. How much ever occupied you are with work, but the absence of your child will always hurt you. It's difficult to cope up with these feelings.

Life is strange and it's said, life is a journey but I feel it's more like Life is a circle and what goes around comes around. It's all interconnected, we experience life in different phases. What we give to others and what we receive from others we experience it for us also in reverse mode. Each experience brings us to a full circle to where we started from making us wiser and resilient.